An Emo Day

Today feel just strange. Everything seems slow and I hope that I have this time machine so I can fast forward so that I don’t have to deal with all these feelings. Campy suggested to divorce. Reason is because he can’t change and I just found out that he can’t accept what he did etc. Whatever reason, it doesn’t really matter anymore.

There’s no point blaming who is right or wrong. I’ve to admit that I’m at fault too so I don’t entirely blame him. Besides, I’m not really a good wife or mother.

Tears just keep falling own its own while I was working today. Within a few hours, I went into the toilet more than 10 times LOL just to wipe my tears away. My nose was so red that I pretend I got a bad cold till my manager thought she spread her flu to me. Haha. I don’t know whether they know or not because my eyes were quite watery & red.

I believe that I can let go soon or later (not now though) but I’ll surely keep all those sweet memories with me. I know from now onwards the road ahead will be much harder to walk but if noone falls, they wont grow. Besides, I've a bunch of great friends, family in laws and family.